Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7
Debriel, Supernatural, Warnings-None
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Sam was pacing around the room waiting for Dean to arrive.
He wasn’t nervous, no sir, but he couldn’t help having this hunch that somehow his brother was slowly growing apart from him. He didn’t need to be a genius to understand that Gabriel was as smart as a fox and ten times sharper than that and after talking to Cas that dreaded pull on his stomach had tightened up to an alarming rate.
-Sam.
Then again, Cas had tried to reassure him, telling him that his brother would never hurt Dean. But what would a normal, traditional garrison angel know about the messed up upbringing of a pagan god? Their experiences couldn’t have been more different.
-Sam.
Still, he probably shouldn’t have to worry for real. Because, yeah, an archangel was pretty much courting his brother but that didn’t necessarily mean that Dean was to fall for him. Right?
-Sam!
-Huh?
-Please, stop pacing around.
-Right -He awkwardly made a go for the couch but stopped midway. -…water.
-You’re still worried about Dean? -Cas had to follow him all the way to the kitchen to be able to start the conversation.
Sam chuckled nervously -Of course not! I mean, he’s a grown up man, there’s no reason for me to be worrying about him.
Cas placed a hand over his shoulder. -Trust me, nothing bad will happen.
Sam knew the angel meant well but it was nowhere near enough for him to be reassured. He finally sat down at the table. -I’m sorry Cas, it’s just… I don’t even know why I’m getting so worked up about this. My brain is logical about it but I can’t stop feeling like I’m losing my brother forever.
He was crying. He wasn’t sobbing or wailing, his voice was still stable and assertive, but his body hadn’t been able to keep all the rush of his musings inside.
-And it sounds so stupid when I say it out loud but I can’t help it.
Castiel honestly didn’t know what to do to help Sam feel better about his brother but there was something he probably could say about himself. So he just stayed by his side, waiting for his tears to stop flowing.
-Sam?
He turned towards the angel.
-Remember that time you asked me why I never heard your prayers but came immediately after Dean prayed for me? -Sam just nodded.
-I didn’t tell the truth that day. -Sam stood still for a second.
-What do you mean?
-I thought about it time and again and back in the day it didn’t make sense so I just said what I thought was the more obvious reason. It became clear only after a long time.
The hunter waited patiently for the angel to end his thoughts.
– When Dean asked me to answer to your prayers it was literally strenuous. It was impossible for me to keep a stable connection with you. And then came the time to realize you had been missing something ever since I had brought you back from The Cage. That’s the moment I realized it was not that I had tuned out your prayers or that I had a more profound bond with Dean, it was that you didn’t have a soul.
Realization slowly dawned on the hunter’s face. Of course, it was so obvious. You cannot really have faith if you don’t have a soul. Even if he logically believed in Castiel since he had seen him and been with him that didn’t mean he had real faith. That only came from your soul.
-I should have had been able to realize there was a problem if I hadn’t been so worried about myself back then. I… I’m sorry Sam.
It was weird how a situation from ages ago still had an impact on him. He hadn’t thought about it for years and yet the moment Castiel offered him an apology he had felt ten times better.
-It’s ok Cas, it wasn’t your fault either.
Castiel gave him an awkward thin smile and turned his gaze down. There were times Sam couldn’t help himself and think the angel was absolutely endearing and smiled softly at him. They heard noises coming from the garage. Dean and Gabriel had finally arrived and Sam stood up to grab the bags.
-Come on Cas, it’s time to go.









